Relaxing and God??

So I bought this CD yesterday for self guided hypnosis. It is supposed to promote health and well being. I went through 2 sessions last night. One was for sleep and it actually helped drift off to sleep. Did it help that I was already really tired? Probably. But I really liked the suggestions to completely relax and I could feel my body responding.

My hair, while not a total buzz is almost gone on top. I hacked the hell out of what remained, I wanted to see what my head looks like. Since I don't have clippers, it reminds me of a little chick. Not as bad as I thought (the shape of my head I mean.) The hair really is gone though. The few sickly strands made me feel like a man fighting baldness with a bad comb over, so I cut it. I am not ashamed of the baldness. What alarms me is that so much of the self help books suggest my subconscious could have contributed to the loss. But all promise that there is an answer in side that can heal myself so I am encouraged by this. I have made a promise to myself that I would meditate every day to let go of the issues I may hold in my scalp. I still haven't admitted to myself that I do this. Most people that know me agree that I laugh a lot and let a lot pass. But in the meditation last night they said that the subconscious never forgets. I have an excellent memory of events so it makes sense that even if I told myself I was "over it" my mind/body was not.

For the first time in ages,this experience made me think about church. Why people go, what they get from it and what God is. The ritual reminds you weekly to let things pass, love one another and love yourself. The meditation seems similar. It makes more sense to me now.