Well, I still have yet to shave my head. This is such a weird disease--it totally messes with your mind, its cruel. The one thing society is completely obsessed with, my body is rejecting. It's consuming and I am boring myself with it. I have to keep forgetting about it and get on with my life. It is getting easier though. I don't cry anymore and try to make jokes about how ridiculous this is. I want people around me to laugh about it too. I have started reading material other than self-help which I think is a good sign. But every once and a while I will frantically search the Internet and databases for information I've missed. Some miracle cure. I imagine if someone found it he/she would be a millionaire and everyone would be using it. But that's just how unpredictable the whole thing is. Every case is unique and no one knows what the hell is going on. I did come across something today that said it usually takes 3 months for re-growth to start. That is helpful if true. I would like to hear more things like this so I know what to expect. I need to start asking these questions to people who have gone through it.
I have been given many gifts during this process. People in my life have been enormously supportive in unexpected ways. No matter what my future holds I know that I will be a more sensitive and empathetic person. My friends and family are teaching me how to respond when others are experiencing hardship, and how not to. Perhaps that is the most useful information of all. Thank you thank you thank you!
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